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//Wednesday, May 27, 2009 8:56 PM
Mid-term-crisis
Let your prayers wash over me. I came up with a new term which some of my friends seem to appreciate. "Mid-term-crisis" Even my lecturer agreed when she asked me, "Are you alright? You don't look well" I replied, "No, I'm not ok... going through mid-semester-crisis" She laughed then said, "Oh yes, semester crisis. Every student goes through it" Of course I don't look well. Of course I'm not fine. Of course I'm feeling miserable. In between applying for my VISA, booking for my flight, sorting out the payment for my following semester in Clayton, researching on my International Journalism final assignment on Malaysian Politics and Media, feeling unwell the whole of last week (sleep and nutrition deprivation), feeling my stress build up as my exams are approaching, I now have to sort out my own student accommodation in Clayton. No, you have not heard the worst. On top of that, I found out that I forgot to insert quotations after citing straight from a text in my second half of my major 50% FTV assignment. In other words, if I fail this paper, I fail my entire subject even though I did fairly well in my first assignment. Just cause I didn't add "this". Even my International Studies results was not sufficient enough to wipe the misery and disappointment from my mind. I have to meet my lecturer tomorrow to state my defense. Le Sigh. A part of me knows I totally deserve my carelessness because if only I did it 1 day earlier, I would have spotted my mistakes. Another part of me just wants this semester to end so I can start anew and really concentrate on my studies during my subsequent years in Clayton. I think I have been personally putting too much pressure on myself. Just yesterday I was thinking to myself, "Who and why am I putting so much effort into my studies?" I am thankful that my parents are really liberal with my education. They're not really concern if I achieve the best results so long as I pass and am able to graduate with a degree. Sure, they'll be proud if I achieve something more than average but they wouldn't pressure me like I know some parents do. Which brings me back to the question, "Who and why am I putting so much effort into my studies?" When I think about it and consider it, I realize its societal pressure to try and outdo one another? Plus, Malaysians are plainly kiasu in general. Le Sigh. I actually have so much to say about this subject but currently my main concern is blogging out my personal misery. For once in my life, I suppose a PASS in every subject this semester would be adequate. And I was complaining last semester for scoring a Credit. I swear I'll do my best to be happy with my grades from now on so long as I make it through the passing grade. Which brings me back to my current situation. Yes, I am really emo now not because of anyone or anything but my own stupidity, procrastination and carelessness. And no, I'm never going to make the same mistake if I make it through this hurdle. It's going to be be-early assignment completion from now onwards! Which goes to all my last-minute-kaki (friends) as well. Learn from my mistake. I'm probably going to have this pale ghostly face the entire day tomorrow. Honestly, I think I should see the school counselor/psychologist regarding my mid-term-crisis. Poh Sim, Ng. Labels: emotee, personal, tragedy |
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